Yeah. I'm working really hard on re-structuring the stuff in my head that I installed to get through those days. I'm not actually a box turtle, and while attempting to be one "worked" in that I got to the other side of that time alive, there are all sorts of people bits that have gotten mis-shapen, hardened, or atrophied in the process and it's difficult and painful to recruit them into adult-human-type activity and form.

As for "getting over" maltreatment that's continuing, fuck that noise.